Thursday, August 22, 2013

How to outgrow your highschool friends

You're freshly 18 and you and your friends are going off to college, and you promise to stay in touch, and you promise to always be "best friends", and you promise to write and text and get together every chance you have.

And then freshman year is over, and you spend the summer with your friends, and things seem the same, but if you look deep enough you can start to see the separating. Everyone is starting to branch out, but you are still great friends, and you still keep your promises.

And then sophomore year is over, and you spend your summer working more and making time for friends less, they don't understand completely anymore, and keeping in touch through out the school year has lacked. They don't know about the little things anymore, and you start to make excuses not to get together as often because you are going in a different direction then they are. You are making plans, and working towards a future, and they are having fun.

And then junior year is over, and you spend your summer working 2 jobs, and mourning the loss of a relationship, and not texting back as quickly or jumping up to get the phone when it rings. You would rather go home and study or watch Netflix than put the effort into going out and pretending to have it as together as they do. They have spent their summer backpacking, and in an amazing internship, and traveling up and down the east coast. And you have spent yours planning your escape from this town, and your future, working 2 jobs, and exhausted.

But you get together one last time before school starts, and while you are all sitting around the fire chatting, you realize you have outgrown these beautiful girls. Each one with a sparkling personality and beautiful souls, but you just cant convey your wants and wishes to them anymore. They don't understand your soul, and while they laugh easily over something that you have to force to even smile over, you realize that you have outgrown them in every sense of the word. It doesn't make you love them any less, it doesn't make you not cherish their friendships, but you cannot talk to them anymore about your life and have them understand.

And that is such a lonely feeling.

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